Pandora's Box #126 "Thoughts of a troubled woman."

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<Petrova's quarters>

She yawned and stretched as she wandered into her quarters, tired. Nay, exhausted. But there, she found a PADD. < .. Crap. More work.> she thought to herself as she unbuttoned the top of her uniform and flopped on her couch, picking up the PADD, starting to read.

When she was done reading Ryylar's PADD, seeing his innermost thoughts, she just .. held it .. and stared at it, for a good few moments. Shoulders slumping slightly as she closed her eyes, lowering the PADD, it slipped from her fingers and she didn't even notice the clatter as it hit the ground.

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In my hands A legacy of memories I can hear you say my name I can almost see your smile Feel the warmth of your embrace But there is nothing but silence now Around the one I loved Is this our farewell?

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"Ryylar .." She sighed softly. Then again "Oh Ryylar .. " A deep frown would form as she thought about the things he'd written up. When they first met, she didn't like him. She didn't trust him. She thought he was just a player. But now .. he's shown himself a true hero, a knight - charging to rescue damsels in distress .. and willing to give up Everything .. To be with her. To be with Kristiana.

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Sweet darling you worry too much, my child See the sadness in your eyes You are not alone in life Although you might think that you are

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Why ? She could only guess. She had NO idea what made the feline fall in love with her. She wasn't exceptionally beautiful, nor was she young .. All that she could claim is that she'd aged well. Her body was still firm and hadn't really started sagging yet. And her eyes - yes, those were her pride, they were soulfull and somewhat sad, but they always spoke volumes. Maybe it was her eyes, that he'd fallen in love with.

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Never thought This day would come so soon We had no time to say goodbye How can the world just carry on? I feel so lost when you are not at my side But there is nothing but silence now Around the one I loved Is this our farewell?

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Kristiana rose from the couch, wandering into her bedroom, forlornly. She shed her uniform jacket and unbuttoned the top button of her uniform pants, sighing a bit at the feeling of freedom that that subtle action gave her. She saw her suitcase, she saw the pile of clothes and other assorted objects that she'd planned to pack, for their trip to earth, to face the music .. Her father .. As well as her mother's grave. Both thoughts caused her dread. But she knew she had to face them sooner or later .. And as she was steadily growing older, so was her father. And she knew that she had to hurry if she wanted to bury her demons, instead of her father.

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Sweet darling you worry too much, my child See the sadness in your eyes You are not alone in life Although you might think that you are

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Kristiana finished putting her stuff into the suitcase, and just collapsed on her bed, curling up like a lost baby, closing her eyes, shoulders shaking softly as she cried, soundlessly and without tears. "Ryylar .. Why ? Why are you giving up Everything .. Just for me ?" she quietly muttered, the words barely audible.

After a little while she calmed down a bit, and slipped off of her bed again, to add one last thing to her suitcase. <.. I owe you, Ryylar. And I'm gonna make good on that debt. This, I promise.>

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So sorry your world is tumbling down I will watch you through these nights Rest your head and go to sleep Because my child, this is not our farewell. This is not our farewell.

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On top of her clothes, in the suitcase .. now rested her black leather playsuit.

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Kristiana Petrova

Lyrics are: Within Temptation - Our Farewell

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